Losing control of my heart was the first step to falling for Love again but I must admit living life with you has made life so much easier. I have not had this feeling in awhile. My heart is open to you. My heart is devoted to you. I love.... I love... wait! I can not be falling this easily...this rapidly. My mind is battling with my heart to making the decision of letting you stay your place. You know the seat in the my heart reserved for you. I love..wait. What are the consequences? What if? I can not make up my mind. Questioning. Contemplation kept my mind occupied while Love was speaking to my soul. Love knew that the only way to keeep me interested is to make friends with my soul and distract the mind with causes of doubt. The "what if" mentality. Clever. I am becoming more gullible to the idea of letting you stay.
First date was dinner and a movie. Old fashioned approach: Stimulate the mind..next enjoy my time and make room for friendship. After the date, he took me home at a descent hour and walked me to the door. He hugged me but I wanted a kiss. Am I moving too fast?
Second date surprised me. Love greeted me with my favorite flowers. Pink Roses. He later took me to a fancy resturant with amazing artistry. I was not prepared for any of this. I love...
Heck.. I am speechless.
Mentally, I was lost. He killed two birds with one stone. Occupied the mind with worry, became more aquainted with my soul, leaving me physically unstable. Love was prepared to catch me as I fell in love with him. Clever?... Clever. You are such a gentlemen. I got shot twice to the brain, once to the soul, and twice to the heart. There is nothing left of me except the willingness of letting you get settled. Have your way. Get comfortable. Prop your feet up. Claim me. I am yours...forever? I am unsure about how long but I do not see an ending point to this love affair. Our time together is unpredictable. You are unpredictable... wait let me explain...in a good way. Your actions are unpredictable...you get me? Am I explaining myself to him? See! You got me nervous. I can not find a sense of direction. Which way is left? There is nothing left. What is wrong with me?
Before I could transfer another thought to my brain....
Love kissed me. I felt my soul leave me and come back to my body purified and fresh. My knees buckled. My legs began to forget how to walk. I managed to get in the door so we could say goodbye for tonight. Love smirked with confidence and walked away.
i ....love.......you
